silly sophmore year.

looking back through this blog is interesting, and quite embarssing honestly. To see the things that use to be soo important to me, that now couldn't matter less. I would hope i would look at these things and learn from them,

1. Dont let other's actions and choices influence your happiness. You are your own person, only you can deside how you want to feel, and what will influence you.

2. BE YOUR SELF. You were made to look, think, and feel different from everyone else, so dont try to copy another person.

3. The saying "follow your heart" is kinda stupid. Sure, do what makes you happy and stuff, but dont be stupid! Use your head and think about what your doing before you make a huge mistake.

4. Life is what you make it. If something bad happens, and you fall for a moment. Hope back up again and keep going. Never stop. Dont let your life be full of regrets and half hearted efforts.

5. Believe in yourself. You are amazing, talented, beautiful, intelegent, and able. Go and do what you want to do with your life. True, there will always be someone better then you at something, but thats no reason to give up.

6. Dont get lost in the silly stupid things in life. Get a goal plan. Know what you want and plan out how you are going to get it. Dont sit around expecting it to just come to you. Get off your fanny and get to work.

7. Stand up for what you believe in. Dont let the peer presure of your friends get to you. Just because all your friends and peers are doing it doesn't mean you can or should.

8. Dont get offended. Forgive others. Laugh at the stupid things you do and dont kick your self for making a mistake. Everyone makes them, so why get hung up on them?

these are just a couple things of advice ive learned from the past year.... I think im going to go write a self help book now.. haha.

very symbolic pictures

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- its all described right here.

O_o
- this is a very educational one too

<3 (?)
- this stinks.

and lastly

-_- -zzz
-my one and only desire.

so this is high school?

so this is high school? How the change seems so ultimate and depressing. It worries, and amazes me at the same time. The joy, the pain, the hope, the stain, and the incomprehension of such a word as high school. A common word, yet one that is loved and feared.

i like doing harmonies...

HI:O) anyway : (:)

iiiimmm ssssiiiicckkk :( cry

idk what to write, so i guess ill go do my history.

73 days tell my birthday!! :) :( thats forever

i feel like writing a short story again, but i really need to do my history, so love you, have a good life. dont die. breath, eat cake :)

a sudden burst of insperation.

hide in the light
run in the shade
discover a new life
golden inlayed

block out the bad
let in the good
rush from the somethings-
you know that you should

life is like dreaming
happy and glad
but life can be screaming
distraught and mad

look for a ending
but live while you can
our life is pending
hooked by a strand

Its Friday.

HAPPY FRIDAY!!! So im learning tribute on the piano, and its amazing!!:)

Im excited for the new semester on monday!!:) Its going to be good, im really excited.

im going to write down my new shedual because i can.... ok

A1: stage craft (tech)
A2: Biology (gordan)
A3: Honors English (newby)
A4: Algebra 2 (gorley)

B0: ball room
B1: History (griffith)
B2: Drama
B3: Seminary (teacher yet to be determined)
B4: Band

Woohoo! so its going to be a fun schedual:) im happy. anyway.

idk, im just bored... ok well bye!

(yeah i know this was a lame post, but i have better things to do with my life!!:P

On the second day after christmas...

hey all you bloggers/people out there!

So im very very sad:( I managed to break the screen on my camera so now its dead and im very sad because im broke and can't buy a new one. :( anyone know where you can get a screen fixed cheap?!

anyway, I had a fabouless Christmas this year:) It doesn't matter what I got because I had fun, I built a 7 foot snow man, played games, got my phone taken away (that wasn't fun) and did other stuff:)

So far its been a pretty good break, but im excited for the new term to start, to get new classes, to catch up with my friends I havn't seen for ever, and ect.!

oh i like my new blog colors :)

anyway, ok I got a Q. So how long can a guy call you/ talk to you on the phone before you can say that you are 99% sure he likes you? idk... but its starting to frighten me... nvm, just a "random" question.

ah!! I can't wait tell school starts! or at least I want party with all my friends durring the break!

:] - this face has a meaning behind it.

OH i got a new phone! this is old news, but i just thought i would share, because i can:)

OH OH OH (oh oh oh, not ho ho ho) i want to get my hair cut, like short, really short! (ok to my shoulders, but thats really short for me!) what do you think? im so sick of it, and when you give one of your guy friends a hug, and some how they get my hair in their mouth, and this has happend a lot, you know that its time for a hair cut!

ok, well write back, because all my friends are ignoring me, and im sad, so you should write to me!!

I feel like writing a short story/long poem.. so here it goes

I crawled towards my bed, to hide for a while from the light of day. But underneath is the darkness. I’m afraid of the dark, terrified in fact, especially in unfamiliar places. This is an unfamiliar place.
I have slept in this bed all my life, the same windows, the same bed, even the same paint hung on the wall. Yet, I was a stranger to this world, an outcast? Another stranger crept toward the door with harsh knocking and a sickly sweet voice. "Is everything alright Hun?" it said. "You look kind of down today." 'Why shouldn't I?' I wanted to yell, "Why shouldn't everyone in this world look down, because there isn't anything to look up to. And even when you try to look up you are blinded by a sun, which seems bright but in fact is really just a ball of heat and fire burning its way though a dark empty universe." But of course I was smarter than to yell that toward the door, and simply said in a soft voice, "I’m fine, just sleepy." Which is always the smartest thing to say when one wants nothing more then to be left alone in their room for a while. After losing several gallons of H2O and Sodium Chloride I peered out the window. Only to be burned by the rays of the ball of liquid fire. After hiding for a few moments more, and embarrassing myself for the impact, I looked out the window again, and soon the rays seemed almost bearable. Out standing in the fire's hands were several children, playing in the heat of the glow. I looked at them jealously, for they still thought that they belonged here, and had years to come until they would learn that they to were a stranger to this world. I turn around and dove under my shield as another gush of rain started to flow. I felt something on my leg and pulled it out, its own fake brightness blinding me like the fire ball's had. I blinked and looked at the world. "Jeremy" said the cruel fake light. Pain shot through me again and I hurled the fake light toward the nearest barrier, it bounced off it, leaving a small dent where it had been attacked. "Shoot" I muttered. I was in for it. I didn't bother with the counterfeit illumination and instead picked up a imagine and a pin and covered the hole with it. I stared at the grinning faces in the imagine and had a sudden desire to make a hole in that too. Refraining myself from doing so, I instead picked up the bogus beam and looked at the message locked inside. "What’s up?" 'oh, how deep!' I thought, a smirk flashing across my face. Sigh, was the dispatcher really so stupid as to not have noticed anything. Oh, how I wanted nothing more then to fling back though the device "Oh nothing, just balling because your to stupid to see anything. To stupid to see that I only want to tell you one thing. To stupid to catch my hints when my hand sits lonely close to yours. To idiotic to see that my eyes light up when ever your around. Far to dim to know that I really love you.' "Yes" I muttered. "That I really love you"....

I stepped outside into that bright burning glow with a glow within myself...

ok, its freaking corny.... but hey! What ever... it was the only thing that would come to my mind at that moment... and now that I have wasted an hour of my life, im going to do homework!!